Werk has been relli tiring me out.. tat my health's been sufferin.. ehehe.. got tummy cramps n gastric pains frequently.. baru je yestd i vomitted a few tymes n i felt lyke wanna faint suddenly.. luckily my dear hubby cancel his ot last min n brought me to see the doc @ 12am.. jus imagine tat.. aww.. i feel so lurved.. he's sucha a gud hubby whu takes care of me his darlin baby gal relli well.. sumtymes i feel kinda bad after we quarrel, n i showd my temper n vent my frustrations on him..neva once he raised his voice at all at me.. am i bein too demandin n taking him fer granted..?? the more each dae i thk of him.. the more im soo in lurve wif him.. i hope nth comes betwn us.. realli afraid of losing him one dae..realli afraid tat the spark tat was once in the rship mite juz fade away.. juz lyke i c most in my fren's rships.. i truly lurve tis guy dun ask me y.. he's e' 1st guy unlyke the other guys .. whu made me truly lurved n special bein by his side.. he's e' 1st guy whu made me laff, cried.. broke my heart once.. mend it twice.. e' 1st to meet my parents.. 1st guy whu found out abt my strengths n weaknesses.. evrythg abt his sayang he noez.. i shd make an effort den to noe my hubby betta..

aww so swit rite. ?

....missing u as each dae passes...

wish u were by my side.
miss ur smile, ur frown, ur jokes, ur blurness...


ur touch.ur kiss.ur hug.
juz everythg abt u makes me blush.
thinkin of u moi dearie dae & nite.

but oni u don noe ..
of the heartache i felt....
each tyme we mizunderstood one another. we often did~

How I MET MY OTHER HALF

my gawd.. ive nt been bloggin fer a loonnngg tyme.. haha been rather bz fer the past yr lately.. esp wit my new job transfer.. im a HICS 2 (also known as Staff Sgt back in the SPF) in the ICA dept.. hehe.. my job .. easy peasy.. DUTY OFFICER job OR chckin of all sorts of vehicles lookin out fer contrabands and profiling/investigating suspected illegal workers.. kewl. n yea i oso hav a warrant 2 do tat. tis yr is a tuff yr mayb.. wat a a heavy responsibility.. well.. wat to do.. its my job..
haha.. oh well life's been pretty good i wd hav to admit.. got a good job, get a good pay.. wat else.. family's been gud too alhamdullilah~ n yea got attached yep in 2005. his name is juff. 22yrs. met him sumwher bwten ard Oct - Nov 05
standing @ 1.8m (hah.. im short!). n he's quite a cute guy i thk..hahaha
nasib baik we stay ard the west area.. tak jauh kalo nak jumpa.. hehe
well i met my dearie in an unusual situation i wd thk.. we wd alwaz c each other at the same point @ wrk.. but i duno y often he wd just look at me wit disgust i wd sae.. i mean ttz wat i see frm his look. while the other guys wd all tok to me.. tryin to get to noe me.. but of coz i wasnt interstd.. i had my interst in tat guy whu sort of "alienated" me frm him.. watz up wit him at 1st i tot so.. he's soo cold. later on i found out frm my galpal he wanted to get to noe me! but he was too shy.. coz he thks tt i was most probly attached to sumone else.. wat a letdown hehe..
gosh.. i was sOO hapy.. huh.. cant believe it sia.. he got my no. we started smsin & callin each other b4 we decided to start hanging out more often wit each other.. or shd i sae datin? oh well.. dere were no sparks firewrks wateva.. ttz.. nth but i felt good being wit him.. cosy!
hahaha.. fussy me. im happy now.. bery much.. though juff's alwaz gettin on my nerves.. lately esp. hehe.. wateva it is i still lurve him to bits.. & he alwaz reassures me tt he oni lurves me & his dearez mommy n no other gals.. hehe. though our work shift schedules alwaz clash he's in team charlie whereas im in delta.. so we oni get to mt on nite shifts.. otherwise i juz hope nth else gets in our wae.. haha coz he suits most of my criteria for a bf..well at least ttz wat i see.. when im sick he's alwaz lookin aftr me.. hehe.. makin sure i go doc, eat my med.. n get well fast. whn anythg hapens to me, he gets worried.. hehe.. guess its a torture fer him to be wif me.. but its a blessing fer me instead.. hahaha.. all i hav to sae is : im in lurve.

woah!!! soo many months nv blog oredi.. haiz.. been buzy wit work.. n yea i finally finishd my studies.. got a full cert!! hahaaha.. next step.. find a job (though im workin currently lahz) but nt any kinda jobs.. in career wit the police force would be nice.. haha yea.. yum yumm.. waitin for the chance to don that smart uniform.. oh boy.. goody goody.. n yea, over these months.. ive become more crappy, more cranky..more cheeky.. n more wat huh??.. erm.. oh well..juz soo hyped up.. enjoying moi eva single life ouch! hahaha. to aliah whu post A qnS to me: sorie didnt tag ya back.. me wrkin at JurongPort Pte Ltd.. a shipyard.. cool getta see all those vessels n containers comin in.. but shucks.. no cute guys around... haiz! hahaha

well..well..well.. itz been dayz.. haha since like mths tat i log into blogger & type sum stuff.. been pretty bz muggin 4 da As.. final lap..MUZ gET 3As 2AOs! wat else.. hehe.. yea while fastin.. havin 2 wake up at 4am 2 eat.. wait, b4 tat i normally slp at 3am.. tat's like oni an hr of slp?? no wunder i hav been gettin eyebags.. so tired.. oh well.. nwae.. feel like changin da stupid blog layout of mine for smth cooler.. but like no time.. pretty tedious for an internet junkie yet "idiot" like me.. oh guess i'll try see wat comes out of it.. for u guys whu frequently see my blog.. do gif comments ya.. hehe.. if i change my layout tat is.. tis is 2 all my malay-muslim peepz - "selamat berpuasa"!

" let's tok tis over.. itz nt like we're dead.. was it smth i did..or was it smth u said?.. ur frens, dey duno me.. but dey act dey do.. held up so high, n i'm an unbreakable threat.." hehe.. feelin soo super darn sleepy.. tired oso.. like tat 2 look nice on fridae.. when ive been missin out on my beauty slp.. damn! wateva.. feelin angsty as well.. nt those rock punk chick sorta though.. guess wat i took da plunge n was game enuff 2 cut my long hair short & abit spunky.. but nw prob is i dun0 how 2 style my hair.. hiakz..hiakz.. oh whu cares.. itz nt even prom! & every1's soo hyped abt it.. come on.. tt sux la.. gtg nw.. got econs lesson.. muZ g0! hehe.. signin off~ peace~!

oh well.. prelims over.. yea.. but im soo disappointed wit my results.. put in much effort but i still flopped.. n watz worst i flopped gp for da 1st time! its a major exam somemore sey! hw come can do soo badly.. sheesh.. niwae.. i oni manage a mere 1 A 2 AOs.. need another A lev pass.. tt makes it 2 As n to pass GP.. so tt makes it 3 AOs.. yepz.. can go into PA oredi.. haha.. direct sergeant entry .. which needs gd A levs passes wit 2 As 2 AOs.. hehe.. feelin edgy abit tis week.. lookin 4ward 2 da graduation dae.. tis comin fridae.. ooh.. still haven get everythg yet 4 my get-up.. but gonna cut my hair 2dae i guess at Jantzen or Jean Yip..probly.. which is betta? hmm.. i normaly go Kimage.. haiyah.. leceh siakz! hehe.. oh well.. goin for smth short n spunky.. da weather's oso pretty hot! whew.. signin off~

todae is da dae i set free ... from all da past sleepless nitez i have had so far.. tis will be da dae i take my last paper for prelims.. though it is nt da end of everythg but a mere beginning to an unthinkable "journey".. would it be easy after everythg has truly pass me by? not sure.. da ans is i will have to wait & see.. as for results wise.. i'm just countin my numbered days.. 2 weeks from nw i will have my mock exams thereafter it will den be da real thingy! scary but damn true.. face up da facts.. it will oni be ard 1 mth's time.. gonna push myself really hard, get da cert i wan & get da hell outta sch.. hehe.. prelims i dun thk i did so well.. in fact a few hiccups here n there which i'm gonna avoid repeatin back durin da As.. juz hope i get 2 A lev passes for both mgmt & hist (which is da ppr i'll be takin in an hr's time 2dae) ... n of coz an AO pass in GP .. at least a C5 (which is wat ive been gettin..damn).. or a B4.. hehe.. gud enuff.. econs i dun thk i got hope.. i screweed up my essay segment.. howz MCQ & DRQ & Case Study gonna help me?? not much i guess... hehehe.. signin off~

2dae i feel soo super shitty wit myself.. damn disappointed wit me myself n i.. y? coz i put in alot of efforts into studyin soo much.. damn! i knew da answers to da paper juz nw.. btw it was mgmt of biz paper 2 tt i sat for .. but whYYYY must da elbow cramp come on suddenly when i semangat wanna write alot.. ok, i admit time mgmt wasnt dere as well.. see lahz.. when i noe da answers.. cant complete da paper on time.. left out an 8 mks & 3 mks qns.. howz tat.. surely teruk case of marks i'll get.. haikz.. nvm.. i'll geared up for paper 1 man.. nv felt soo tensed up ..nt even like O levels time. tis is worst!.. couldnt sleep da whole nite yestd.. hehe.. oh well.. wat can i sae.. damn!

hmm.. 125 peepz hav seen my blog.. i wunder whu sey.. hey u guys whueva whu sees my blog yah.. yea u?! at least write a comment or smth so at least i noe uve been to tis blog of mine.. wateva la.. u all dun wan, cant force u 2 withdraw ur anonymity rite.. hehehe.. niwae.. been rather long since i put in an entry.. let'z see huh.. cant wait for my graduation ceremony actually, coz after tt can stay hm study... dun need to come 2 sch.. but i thk i'll still come anyway.. contradictory rite.. hahaha.. feelin outta sorts lately.. hmm.. disillusioned by all da stupid crap r'ships thingy my frens are goin thru.. haiz.. seems like guys r still jerks after all.. y nt all gals start turnin les?.. muahahaha.. watz da use of gettin together den brkin da other party's or each other's hearts.. sey! ttz wat u call love?? fark la! people!! wherz da lurve sey??!.. wat happen 2 all those 1st time u met u like each other..impressions sort? all gone i guess.. haha, blame it on "losing tt lurvin feelin towards ur partner" heh.. oh but can start lurvin another at da same time.. woaH.. how wunderful eh..n0w is i dun lurve, i dun hate but im juz closin doors on any potentials.. y? coz i dun wanna go down da same path as my frens did.. suffer for wat .. yea it gets to u if ure single .. so wat?! im single, livin life as it is, im lurvin it & ttz wat i wanna be, how i wan it to be.. yeah!..

haikz.. trying to be like wat my fren wanted me 2 try out.. writing without inspiration (to me tt is..).. writing when u dun feel like writing... i've been rather down lately.. wat 2 do.. body achin & definitely down in da dumps.. but mind & soul feelin even worst still.. mind occupied wit plenty of stuff 2 do for da weekend .. tt includes revision & hmwrk.. soul too occupied wit lamentin at da state i'm currently in rite nw.. soo tired.. wish i could rest, fall asleep & nv to wake up again.. oni 19 but soo tired out by things i do in life.. issit? i duno.. wat crap am i tokin? i'm nt sure myself.. eugh.. y muz tt sum1 lost da hp.. farnie.. oh well. heck.. to me, fate's playin a game wit destiny & we're da "pawns" in tis game.. wateva it is.. i'll see how.. ttz all for now i guess.. & to Moiz.. hehe dun sae i nv update moi blog my fren.. howz tis for a person like me whu has no "jiwang-ness" in her at da moment???.. juz writing wateva tots tt comes into my mind at da instance..hehe.. well.. i'm off~

I've decided 2 write in an entry after seein my blog nt being updated quite long oredi..  Hmm.. I've been feelin down.. I noe I looked tired but yea inside of me is even more tired out.. I've somehow stop worryin much.. but I still looked weary.. Thanks Ina for da tot of writin me sum motivation..hehe.. & yea da lollipop's soo nicey.. hehe.. Well.. If it's meant 2 be.. it will be rite.. I juz happen 2 like him.. but like wat u guys advice me.. I'm nt hopin for anythg.. I noe myself betta.. & I can read my inner soul betta..Though how I wish it wd hav been nice if he knew abt me earlier.. hehe wat crap am I thkin? I thk my tots are abit "rojak" nw..sowie.. I mean.. wat wd happen if he knows I hav smth goin on for him.. wd he shun me? avoid me nt tok to me? wd he be angry? wd he dislike me.. for I may nt be of a certain standard or criteria of an ideal gal to him?? or wd it be all of da opposite.. tt wat i'm hopin for.. for him 2  accept me for whu I am.. nt wat am I, how I look dress tok wateva..?? will it be easy for me? or will it turn out to be somewhat of a rocky road ahead.. wateva it is.. I'll let time decide.. I'll take things as it comes onto me.. slowly..bit by bit..ish.. I'm juz being in a wishful thkin mode nw.. shoot.. sum1 shoot me.. hate myself for feelin tis wae.. for ur info, whuz da person.. it's sum1 oni my closest peepz will noe of.. yea u guys noe abt it.. for those whu dun.. i'll gif u "helpful" clue: He's fair & stands at 175cm. go figure it out.. hahaha..   

aikZ.. guEss i'LL hav t0 sTop bLoggIn.. peEPz iF uRE reADinG tiZ sh0RT buT importaNT mSg - taKE n0te: fr0M 7tH jULy onWARdS mOi inTernET aCCEss aT h0mE wiLL bE cuT oFF! s0 n0 moRE surfinG, checkInG oF maIL & frieNDsTR acc0unTs anym0RE.. soBz* soBZ*.. WELl thankS aLOT dAD~.. hE's worriED thESE aRE diStracTIons & obSTacLes 2 doiN weLl foR mY As.. heLLo.. i"m oREDi n0t doinG wELL ahakzz.. ahakzz.. niWAe.. I'M gLad derE's stiLL DA SMS! hP's aLiVE!.. hahaha.. s0 guESS TAT'z DA enD oF tiZ finAL enTRY oF miNe.. t0 aLl pEEPz wHu haV BeeN readInG mY entriES .. thankS s00 muCh 4 suppoRTinG mE yEAh.. takE caRE & g00D LucK 4 Ur upcomIng A leveLs.. ciaO~!

Tat'z me & moi Lil' sisTa..bIggA siSta nt ard 2 taKe tiS fot0.. weLL, aren't we so00 compatibLe?? ahakz*ahakz* g0sH! duN thK i'm Lesb0 la peepz..got 2 guyS standinG eacH oF uS bUT i cuT deM oFF (soriE yaH LiN~ hehe).. s0mEhoW i LurvE tis piC as iT waS takEn duRinG dA pre-U 3 reTreAT in MarcH 2004.. aWW, aLL thoSE romanTiC liGHTs diM & aLL.. maKEs iT s00 encHantinG coupLed wiT aLL ouR gorGeous ouTfiTS hehe.. Like a trUe bALLr0om exPerienCE aLas..it wasnT hehehe.. WisH sum1 wAS derE wiT me tt tImE 2 taKe a sTroLL .. Da place waS reALli niCE~  

Okie..so FAr i'm soo LaggiN stILL.. hav oni manage 2 covER 1/3 oF RussIan Rev. 2/3 of FrenCh REv. 1/2 of OriGins of WW1. 1/3 of EurOpeAn NationALism (iTaLiAn & GerMan UniFicaTion).. shoot.. sTilL alOT m0RE 2 go.. WanNa stiLL stuDY 4 eConS ..haha.. dIe-iN of NaturAL DEatH i gUess.. HaIz.. Wat eLse caN I be d0in erM.. WELL i'm gLad i'VE got my bLog a weBcounTER & i'm AbLe 2 poST PhoTOS in my BLogpoSTs.. thankS 2 HaN's ideA.. hehehe.. & fiddY's bloG paGe - ttZ whER i gOT "insPiRED" 2 geT a weBcountER.. hehee.. ThanKS guyS if u aLL rEAD thiS..~

I seriousLY mIss MoI SiStaZ!!.. WondER wAT dEY're Up 2.. Or h0w deY're RiTe n0w.. BuT itZ onI a DaE aWaY 2 sEEin DeM agAin.. hehehe 

Another dae has passed so quickly..anxiety of facing da exams is coming upon me.. Left actually a dae more 2 D-Dae.. & it's gonna Be History 4 me on da 1st dae of examinations.. As in History subject nt me being History.. Quite prepared for it though I only scared I panic at da last min due 2 pressure of peepz ard me writing soo much soo like dey realli noe their stuff.. hehe.. I must nt panic.. and breakdown hehe.. I wun.. it's only da mid-yrs.. But thkin of bad results & upcomin Parents' Day won't be sucha a nice idea huh.. aikz.. Life's nt easy, It's tough but one will hav 2 keep on goin till da last breath..

finaLLy i Seem2 get a reaLi nt bAD hanG of bLOggin & changIn moi BLogskins.. cooL.. oh well.. kinDa sLeepy finaLLy.. haha.. tMr gonna meet UP wit my oLd FweNs frm sec scH..hmm thkiN deY'll be goin 2 P.S or haNg aRd oRCHARD area most Probably.. been 3 yrs since we lASt mET.. niwae..won't be bloggin in mucH frm neXt WEEK onwarDS.. coZ it's Da tIMe of Da yEAR - Mid-YR EXAMINATIONS! cruciaL for mE 2 pASS FLyinGLy..hiakz..hiakz.. I lurVE moI nEw blog SKin.. gotta learn next how T0 inSErt a pic into it.. yea.. steP by sTep.. I'M RathER sLOW! ahakz..ahakz.. niwae, got scoldeD by moi dad coz my NIceY br0 toLd on me 4 usin da comp durinG laTE niTEz.. yEA, dAd ScoLD..but i PromiSEd him i'll paY my ShaRE of da biLL when it COmes.. hmm.. smaLL maTTEr..
sHaLL enD 2daE's entry wit thiS:

ThERe iT Was, aGainsT ThE DarkenEd pitCh BlacK SKy
LIke a Lumin0us spaRK of lIghT
IgnitIng a hugE orAngEy-ReD UpRoar 0f FlaMes
LIke a BReAth FRom A DRagoN's MoutH
GlowIng tHrougH the ReddiSH-BlaCK NiTe Sky
EnvisioninG iN mE a gL0winG DeSiraBle DrEAm
It sEEmEd t0 g0 on ForEvEr.. wHeN wIll It St0p?
TiLL ThAt visIOn oF DesiRE Is AChieVED? ...

W0iAh.. found tis at fiddy diddy's blog page & tot i shd try it 0uT jusT 4 da fUn sakE of it.. hehhe.. turquoise!..hmmM.. nice colour.. issit smtH liKE bluish greeN.. or greyisH greeNish..wateva.. I'M a pathetic loser at definin colours..hahaha.. weLL it's 4.35AM & i sTILL can't slp.. wat da hecK.. haha..suddENLY i'm Thkin of eaTin ChocoLate ICE-CREAM!! Yipez.. hehe.. Life's soo crueL it's happeniN rite nw BUt soon it wun be happEnin no morE.. i suddenLY simplY LURVEEE.. da song "SOMEdAY" by NickelBack.. yea, lurve tt song, lurve da band.. haikz.. heartaches, break-ups.. relationships sux.. waT eLSE is sooo nOT nEW in LiFE? I've got TIS 2 SAE 2 aLL SUPERFICIAL EGOISTICAL CHAUVAUNISTIC IDOTS (idiots' rather 2 too crude word huh) in da world out dere - If u guys think tt l00Ks r wat tt mattERS m0st - uRE guys R such suckeRS or possibly jERKS (bunchA LosERS!) i wd sae.. GURLS out dere - fret nt if u dun hav sum guy whu lurves u for whu u ARE.. da time will come.. be patient..GuyS whu plaCED interest in da outSIDE & rather NT on da INSIDE - r simPLY nt worth ur tears, effort & time babes..simPLy hATE it wheN gUYS sAE "oh, looks doesnt matter" (BUT WAIT A MINUTE - take a look at their GF & u noe tt dey R definitely contradicting demselves - as often, da gfs tend 2 be slim & pretty) May dey get a gf rather whu judge dem jusT da waE dey do 2 gurls.. hahaha.. g0sH im soo mean huh 2dae.. hah! whu cares~


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2dae mornin woke up relli early.. jus 2 go 4 my mornin run.. hahaha..thanks 2 my lil bro whu woke me up.. haha.. I'm nt a mornin person i can sae.. Well, i guess my performance at runnin has slacken tremendously.. ran abt 1.3km wit da timin of 7 mins.. aiyo.. ttz bad. tt means if for 2.4km.. i shd be finishin ard like wat? 15 mins??.. ttz bad.. i used 2 do ard 13-14 mins .. muz maintain sia & jog more regularly.. if i wanna see myself in da police force next time.. haha.. shd hav listen 2 all moi frens' advice earlier.. but it's nv 2 early 2 get started.. after my run, came hm awhile.. & prepared myself 2 go out again - went 2 da bank & oso did some marketing for my parents along wit my bro taggin along.. we had breakfast .. hehe.. den met up wit my dad b4 goin hm.. did sum revision just nw..but i guess ttz nt enuff.. got an SMS frm my teacher encouragin me 2 revise.. guess she was jus checkin up on my progress & kinda worried 4 me.. I'm soo blessed 2 have sucha caring teacher.. hehe.. hmmM.. guess ttz much for my blog entry 2dae.. gonna wake up early again tmr 4 my mornin run.. I'm determine 2 make it a habit of mine 2 do my mornin runs at least twice or thrice a week.. besides goin 4 aerobics & kickboxin.. hehe.. (which i went for last wk but didnt do much..regretted tt)..