Have not been blogging though I seriously told myself to do so.
Been super busy that is.
Meet-the-people sessions with the MP. Volunteer work. RC meetings. Grassroots leaders conferences. UniSIM's conferences with the Minister for Transport. wat else.. there's just so many events and activities on my agenda.

Am I breaking down? yes. I nearly did. But I'm hanging on until now.
The pillar of strength in my life, the one whom I really depend on when I have my ups and downs. The one whom I seek comfort with when I have sorrowful and moody days.
The one whom I thought of as my life, my hope, my guardian angel has sort of left me hanging by a thin piece of thread. Imagine a "cliff-hanger". yes. That's what I am feeling now.
Upset. Lonely. Uncertain. Suddenly I feel so lost without him by my side.
Have I been too hard and harsh on him?
It's been 3 days since we last contacted.
IF this is the way things are meant to be or worst still - to end. I'm not willing to accept the fact.
But fate indeed plays a cruel part in turning dreams into reality ya.
Must I go through the heartache again..?
Must history repeats itself again..?

I hate to say this but love hurts.
I'm a cynic right now. Blinded by angst and fury. Fueled by the things happening around me.
Blinded by what today's society is showing to me.
Angst? Pain? Fury? Mention all and I'll show the meanings of these words for I am right now, sinking deeper into misery and the holes of darkness.
I can only see blackness ahead of me.
I need that strong pair of hands, the same pair of hands to pull me out of the deepest dungeon that I've fallen into.